People always think that I'm insane and psychic because I am frowning all the time telling them the fuckin' truth of my life. People ask me why I get mad easily or get
furious with small things. Even I don't know why!!!. All day long I think of different things but nothing seems to satisfy me and if I am not able to find something to really pacify, I think I'll lose my mind someday. Noone gives a shit bout' me nor anyone respects me. Whatever I say is taken in as formality or just for the sake of it. I need someone or something to occupy my brain which is getting rot with crap. Also to show me the things in life that I can't find which make true happiness.I really must be blind.I make a joke and all will laugh and I will cry coz' u aint laughing at the joke but are laughing at me coz' u think I am dumbshit'. But still I have to pretend that I am enjoying the moment. I cannot feel the happiness. Love to me has become so unreal and there is nothing so called as 'hope' to me. All this must be telling the state of my mind. But I want the rest to enjoy their life. I wish I could but I hope that It's not too late.!!!!I hope I am not PARANOID.
- Alok
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