01 May 2006

Haunting Memories

Its early in the morning. 2:57 am GMT. Feeling restless and getting a 'something is wrong' feeling all over the body. The day started normal, had job yesterday, worked for 12 hrs on da trot. 4 hrs of journey. 16 hrs of relentless drudgery. But when you get rewarded in Pounds, you cant complain.
Was waiting for brother to come online. The moment I saw him, I was about to ask him how everyone was, when, he said... "Arey Bhansali's son is 6 feet high n has Dhoni type hair?" I said yes. I thought he was referring to my friend Shailesh Bhansali. After taking a moments hitch he said, "He had an accident and he is no more, Anna told me."
It just sent shockwave all through my body. I was bloody shocked. After reconfirming with him, it turned out he was referring to shailesh's elder brother. But he wasnt unsure. I knew both of them. Shailesh is my dear friend though. Anxiety started killing me. It was a panic-stricken feeling. Just because I cant bear the news of someone's death. I had purchased a calling card the other day. I nervously dialled shaileshs' no. The phone was answered instantly. Shailesh was on the phone. After listening to his voice, I heaved a sigh of relief. I asked him what happened? There was no sense of depression or distress that could be felt in his voice. Then he replied, "Where are you calling from?"
"London" I said. "What happened? Is everything Alright?" He said, " umm yeah!"
"I heard something bout your brother...is everything..?"
He replied with unbelievable composure and calmness, "He met with an accident, he passed away.....just now...few moments back" I just couldnt believe what I was hearing. He was too cool to be believed. After talkin to him for 30 odd seconds, i couldnt take it anymore n I told him aptly I would call him back.
All this was just too hard for me to take. I dont know what his family must be going through now. I just wish I was there with him right now. Just to be with him. I know how it feels like to loose someone dear. Someone you love. Someone you respect, adore. Its late right now but still I cant help going down da memory lane. The same incidents were happening in my family. I had the same mindset like shailesh. I dunno what I was thinking that time. One person means a lot to the family. Life after his departure changes. For some it changes for the better while for some it doesnt. But its painfull eitherways. I dunno what might be his mother thinking, his father thinking. What Shailesh must be going thru. This all is so painful. Life is Almighty's Video Game. We all are His players. We dont know when he will feel bored of any game and then it'll be..Game Over.
I hope his soul rests in peace.